This is sort of a journal entry I wrote about 6 years ago before Thanksgiving. I had lost my father that year. I can now say I do celebrate Thanksgiving but just with my husband Rob. He is still with me everyday.

There is still a part of me that thinks he will come back. That same part that sat there at his funeral willing him to sit up. To apologize for leaving and saying he's back for good. Every day it gets smaller but that hope will always be with me.  I won't ever be rid of it. I want him back. I can't let him go. Every time I think about him my heart stops and I can't breathe.
I miss him at Thanksgiving. I spent every Thanksgiving for 19 years with him. I don't want the Turkey or the potatoes. I don't want to be with family and put on this front that I'm happy. He was my life. He created me and will never forget. Thanksgiving was his day and will forever be his day. It is now a day of mourning. I loke Rob's idea of just staying in and watching movies. No celebrating, just relaxing. I know I will be okay someday. Just not today.

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)."

Pick Your Artist:
Type O Negative (Cause they are my favorite.)



Are you a male or female:
Cinnamon Girl

Describe yourself:
Angel

How do you feel:
Xero Tolerance

Describe where you currently live:
Suspended In Dusk

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Halloween In Heaven

Your best friend is:
She burned Me Down

You and your best friends are:
(We Were) Electrocute

What's the weather like:
Summer Breeze

If your life was a tv show, what would it be called:
Who Will Save The Sane?

What is life to you:
We Hate Everyone

Your last relationship was:
Love You To Death

Your fear:
Pyretta Blaze

What is the best advice you have to give:
Everything Dies

How I would like to die:
Anesthesia

My soul's present condition:
Haunted

My motto:
It's Never Enough

• 14:12 Someone please fix the air conditioning at work. It is too hot. #
• 07:52 Working in the dark today. Its already hot in here I don't even want think what its gonna be like at noon. #

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• 07:57 Wow, 48 hours with no internet.Glad to be back. #
• 09:12 @jiangyin Haha, yeah I was acually out of town so I didn't even have access to a computer. A cellphone was the only electronic device I had. #

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• 08:03 @feelthisway Haha, Cameron does suck. What episode are you on? Did you see the most recent one? #
• 08:07 @feelthisway Hehe, prompt #63 is hilarious. Every Hanson fan has wondered that at one point. #

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• 04:58 @Tricon I am very proud. #

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• 18:46 The smell of refried beans makes me feel like I'm gonna vomit. #
• 10:16 I hope Brooke gets better real fast. #

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• 13:25 Gonna watch Benjamin Button #

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• 12:41 You can't see California without Marlon Brando's eyes. #
• 13:59 Circles make me happy. #
• 09:44 It's really hot in my office right now. Like, disgustingly hot. #

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• 08:59 If you're 555, I'm 6(sic)6, What's it like to be a heretic? - I love Slipknot & the fact that stupid people think they are satanists. #

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• 20:08 How have I watched so many seasons of Lost and I still have no clue what is going on. At least Locke is in this episode. #
• 20:29 Oh man, I love this show! Lost makes me do the happy dance. #
• 08:02 Listening to "Everyone I Love Is Dead" by Type O Negative. They make me happy, which is surprising since their songs are depressing. #

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• 13:55 My apartment complex is having free beer & tacos tonight for Cinco de Mayo. Isn't that sweet. #
• 18:17 Mmm... free tacos and Corona! I love my apartment complex! #
• 07:55 I'm gonna do yoga i need to relax I have so much on my mind all the time I'm afraid I'll go in the wrong apt or try driving some1 else's car #

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• 08:39 Just happened to look at the expiration date on my driver's license & had a minor freakout that i will be 26 in 8 months. #

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• 21:08 Watching Death Race with Rob. Ahh, Jason Statham. #
• 10:28 So, by some cosmic force all the smoke detectors in the apt go off at the same time. Rob says it was electrical but I think it was ghosts. #

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• 12:56 Gonna work tomorrow and get some more overtime. but today is just so slow its torture. #

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• 14:39 @Tricon I'm so jealous. That thing is awesome. #

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• 15:10 OMG! I am gonna be in Ohio the same time as Slipknot is performing at Rock On The Range in Columbus & I am so gonna get tickets. Love them! #
• 07:54 Tired Don't know why I can't sleep through the night w/out waking up 5 times Wanted to take a nap on the side of the road on my way to work #
• 10:32 @Tricon How come everyone I know always runs into you at Aroma but I never do? Doesn't that seem a little wierd. #
• 11:00 @Tricon Occasionally but not every day like my mother. I usually prefer Pekara cause they have bottles of pop and really good cookies. #

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• 17:32 Mmm...Kabobs! I love warm weather and cooking out! #
• 19:03 I like Transporter and Transporter 2 but Transporter 3 is really sucking. #
• 08:33 Feel like today is gonna be a good day even though it is Monday. #

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• 17:50 @lovebuckeyes So you live in Ohio right? I was just wondering what part because I grew up in Reynoldsburg, right outside Colombus. #
• 17:55 Oh, Bea Arthur died this morning. :( #
• 19:03 Need something to do while I wait for Rob to wake up. Hmm...I'm so bored. #

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• 17:38 @feelthisway Alison Krauss is from my town. My college music prof actually knew her & she played for one of his classes b4 she got famous #

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